for tonight only, i'll be your SEX SLAVE.

2010-10-15T14:01:00.000-07:00

And so, I'm back to do the usuals. Daily rants.

The past months were hectic. I don't really enjoy the roller coaster rides of my life. Repeated incidents and such. But Alhamdulillah, things are falling back onto places. Just like how I want it to be.

Currently, I'm at work. Yes, I'm working temporary over at JobsDB (JTC Summit). If you're wondering why am I even working temporary when I've graduated long time ago... Reason being, I'm so not ready to have a proper and stable job yet. I'm not keen in working under the same line as what I've studied for the past 34 years in Singapore Poly. Regretted much of taking DCSE when I could have actually go for Interior Design or Architecture. Even friends and lecturers agreed.

Im thinking of switching to something else if (InsyaAllah) I'm furthering my studies for Degree. I can't afford to continue doing what I'm not pretty much interested in. Or at least, something under the same school; that is School of Architecture and Built Environment. Pretty much interested with Interior Designing. But at the same time, I'm thinking of doing Mathematics or Teaching. Yes, NIE. Yes, I wanna be a Teacher.

You can laugh all you want. Not surprised though. I've faced different comments and facial expressions. Comments such as,

'OMG. Your students will definitely be corrupted like you'

'Are you serious?! Don't try to be funny Naqq'

'HUH?! WHAT?!'

And the best I received was from, my all time favourite Form Teacher,

'You can be a Teacher. I'm very sure you can. And don't be surprised if the students treated you like how you treated me'.

I denied. I knew all along during my secondary school days, I'm one of the decent ones. HEHS-

Alright fine. Mcm paham!

You don't need to tell me how bad I am cos I know myself way much better than you do. But I'm very sure with my passion to teach, I can excel (and so will the kids). Aisehhhh.....

I can't afford to stay here at JobsDB for long. I might just call schools since my application for Relief Teaching was successful. The problem with me is that, I love to procrastinate. Disclipine. Discipline. Discipline!

And eversince I started working, all that is important to me is my BeautySleep. Nothing new? Indeed. Waking up to doing the same routine does not even exist in my journal/organiser. 9-6pm. And train rides to and fro is forever hell.

'Train is coming... Train is coming... Starts queuing. Loveeeeeeeeeee your ride!'

It irritates me some time. Incident of my butt being squashed by the train door is *Ouch* but funny. Not only that, smelly armpits/body odours and body-to-body contact is making me feel that I should really enrol for my Class 3A. Yes, 3A and not 3. Auto cars are definitely easy to drive though they said it's difficult to pass (TP).

Anywoos, I met up with my ABC Summergirls after work on Wednesday. The last we met was last year, July. Imagine that! So, we did lotsa catch ups and as usual, what's girls affair without taking any pictures. We took Neoprints! NEOPRINTS! And we went gugu-gaga over it. Hahs-

Kaiyan.

(better known as A)

Diana.

(better known as B)

Thanks ABC SUMMERGIRLS for the awesome night. C loves you both so much!

And soo.... Like finally, the weekends are here! Can't wait for tomorrow since I have dates with the ghosts over at Night Safari. Halloween Halloween. No idea where I'll be partying for Halloween night itself. But beloved cousins and I have decided to head to Batam to visit our dearest uncle who is getting married and then probably party-party there. On the other hand, my sec sch classmates have already booked a pit at East Coast. How now brown cow?

Done for now.

Have a great day and enjoy the weekends!

2010-08-24T17:41:00.000-07:00

Hello N.

You're awesome!

Thank you.

2010-05-21T02:29:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello Hello. Yes, I'm back! Two freaking months of letting this blog of mine rust and like finally, I'm back with a whole chunk of awesome stories and pictures to share.

Oh well Oh well. I dont really know where to start but one mayyy-jahhhh problem I'm facing is that, I've been unemployed for TWO freaking months. Yes, I decided to bid farewell to being a Childcare Teacher cos I am not interested in the Specialist Dip. they are willing to offer me neither am I interested to sign the bond with them for 2 years.

But hell yeahs, I miss my class. I miss the kids. I miss singing Nursery Rhymes. I miss doing Art. I miss changing their diapers. I miss feeding them during lunch time. I miss seeing the kids sleeping in super cute positions. I miss everything at Rainbow.

Anw, apart from being unemployed... I managed to have an awesome getaway with my loved one to Tioman Island. And trust me, one word for you: AWESOME!

And the best (NOT!) part of snorkelling is, I stepped on a sea-urchin. No idea what the hell is that. Go google it. It hurts so much that I was limping for 2-3 days. Other than that, the fishes were nice, pretty and friendly cos they actually swam with me.

You know, I seriously have hundreds of pictures to upload but I just couldnt find the time when the fact is, I'm always home for the past 2 months. Don't worry, that day will come. Soon. I think. Hahs-

I hate staying home cos staying home means gaining more weight. And I already DID! Don't tell me how chubby/fat my cheeks are now. Don't tell me how flabby my arms are. Don't tell me how ugly my tummy is. Don't tell me how big my thighs are. Just don't tell me anything. But just so you know, I'm doing something about it. ((:

Hmm... My graduation? Apart from the awesome photo-taking sessions and dinner with my classmates at Fish&Co., my graduation was fucked up. Don't ask me why cos I am just too disappointed and err.. Anw, Alhamdulillah, I've finally graduated. In other words, I freaking need to get myself a job. Giving tuitions is never enough to support me. Plus, I have to pay my study loan back to Mendaki. I can't afford to ask my father to pay for it.

We made it.

The ONLY girls in my class.

(Hazah, Azizah, YoursTruly, Qiao Mei)

The SUPER smart ones.

(UEC Student from Malaysia)

The boys.

Feeling-feeling.

DCSE/3B/01

(UEC Students missing!)

Dinner @ Fish&Co.

Start fishing me!

The sad part of being the photographer is that, you won't be in the picture.

My bitching partner - Hazah.

Just like a sister to me.

Azizah - My always kena bully partner.

And my AWESOME classmates~!

I need a job.

PRONTO.

Seriously, I have a lot to share but It's almost 3am and I need to wake up extra early tmr since I have another mayy-jahh function/ceremony to attend - Ayunn's Graduation Ceremony. And then, I have an interview to attend. And later tonight, will be having seafood at JB with friends for MAKAN SESSION cum celebrating Baby's belated 21st birthday.

Till then.

A proper update soon.

Iloveyou.

2010-02-22T20:05:00.000-08:00

this will definitely be my last entry till my exams are over. i promised, i'll stay focus on my studies till they're done.

i woke up kinda early (for me!) at 12pm today. and then as usual, i did the housechores and got distracted with FB for sucha very long hours! i am very angry with me. From 1pm, i told myself to start studying, but, time checked: 8:11pm and im still here online.

lack of self-discipline!

so anw, the weekends were awesome. was supposed to head to work but overslept (!!!!). nothing new. and then, headed down to school for a Project Based Learning Interview before meeting up with granny, aunt, cousin and sister for dinner. soon after the boy book out, he joined us.

that very same night, boyf and i headed down to Obar together with his sister and boyf and a great bunch of friends. surprisingly, Obar was empty. party-ed and then headed down to Spize (as usual) before making our way back home. it was actually a gathering before babylove's sister, Kak Runee and boyf, Helmi, fly off to Bali for their honeymoon! (hahs-)

Picchasssss.

my boy tekong.

sucha coincidence that we're in blacks.

Helmi, Kak Runee, Babylove and myself.

Kak Runee and me.

the ladies.

great company!

and saturday, it was with the boys; Babylove, Fareez, Salihin, Izzad and girlf, Liza, Ian and girlf, Deelah. had a surprised for Ian since he will leave us for TekOng this friday. boy, was he surprised and happy. we had night picnic at Pebble One before making our way to have supper at Al-Amein (woodlands). and then, chilled at our all time favourite place at woodlands, Teletubbies Land (LOL!).

and sunday, i got a lil too emotional since babylove won't be booking out this weekend. all thanks to his field camp. so which means, i wont be seeing him for 2 weeks. wahssss, heart pain! and the most painful thing is that, he wont be able to contact me during his field camp. i am slowly adapting to this. but thanks to my exams, well at least, im able to keep myself busy and occupied.

i miss my babylove so much.

Wo Ai Ni!

till then. see you prolly after the 3rd March. and anw, to those having your exams, all the best! ((:

Much Love;

2010-02-16T23:57:00.000-08:00

no monday blues cos i had an awesome night at HARD ROCK with my loved ones!

Pretty Kumar!

My bitchy cousins!

The ones who were on the dancefloor.

Cousin Kak Opy - Tong sampah girl for the night with a very loud smelly fart!

(and talking about farting, my irritating brother just farted loudly! Thanks Bro!)

The night wouldnt be awesome without the company of Chief, Babylove, Sister and Cousins!

Love ya'll!

Videos for you...

Suci Dalam Debu by Enigma

Tik Tok by Kumar and Company

Lap Dance for the ones celebrating their birthdays!

much love;

2010-02-05T00:42:00.000-08:00

alhamdulillah,

yesterday's interview was awesome and that im starting work later.

time check: 12:42am

and im still not in bed cos when i get too excited for something, i'll have problems sleeping early.

super excited for work later. and i know, i'll do just great.

wheeeeeeee!

some random pictures from Abg Rudy and Kak Eky's wedding last weekend.

and ohs, Puteri Ayu (the cousins and i) performed a dance (tarian) for everyone.

Sisters Love.

Cousins Love.

Us with Kak Opy.

Puteri Ayu with my mother,

the dance teacher.

Puteri Ayu with mummy (cik imah),

assistant dance teacher.

goodnight.

till we meet again.

2010-02-03T01:20:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah, everything went on smoothly.

Congratulations to both Abg Rudy and Kak Eky.

Have fun in Korea!

will be back in March for a proper update.

2010-01-12T23:32:00.000-08:00

just NOT my day.

really.

maybe, some of you might have read the status update which i post in the evening. yes, i am one angry girl. already the heels are killing me. the next thing we know, my dearest Supervisor (FYP) decided to cancel our presentation at the very last minute cos he was and is still busy with the JAE Exercise.

so, yes. Our presentation was postponed to err... no idea when. cos even our Supervisor has no idea when to conduct the presentation as he will be busy this week. YAYS! so much for rushing through (not really) our slides and everything. tsk.

currently, i am waiting for dearest Hazah who will be sleeping over my place, again. cos, we have to study for our Water Tech retest and then touch up on our FYP powerpoint slides and also, to prepare another presentation on Safety. yes, so many things yet so little time.

anw anw, last weekend was awesome. spent my saturday with babylove at swensens to celebrate our advance monthsary.

pictures pictures pictures.

and on sunday, it was Island Creamery with babylove and babygirl, Namira.

(anw, thanks babygirl for the ride!)

proper entry prolly once im so done with my exams.

see you in March!

2010-01-07T10:16:00.000-08:00

HELLO 2010.

~~Goodbye 2009.~~

It's almost 0230hr and i'm still wide awake. I've been having sleepless nights eversince term4 commenced. Well definitely because i'm so used to sleeping as late as 4/5am in the morning during my holidays.

And yes, i'm still in my holiday mood!

Got back my tests results and am pretty much satisfied with the modules that i passed. Alhamdulillah.

School's been errr... fine. Only the first week of school, and i have so many projects (from last term) that need to be handed in which i didnt touch at all during the holidays. awesome or whutt? And the best thing is, we have about 2 more new projects given to us. ((:

Ask me about my FYP cos we're 80% done and our presentation will be this Tuesday. YAYS! (Huh? Like what?!!)

Ohs, its the Polytechnics Open House and that SP is so flooded with aliens. Me don't likeyy cos they are very rude and is occupying the seats in the foodcourts and everywhereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (even in the buses!).

Anyway, earlier on, i had my usual daily conversation with babylove and it saddens me to hear his super sick voice. And of cos, this girlf of his is pretty much worried. But thank god, he's booking out tmr.

Will be catching Avatar 3D midnight movie with friends and babylove tmr. Yes, i know. I can read your mine. Whatever.

I think, my lappy can just explode anytime cos it's been giving me alerts that its running out of memory. I just couldnt find the time to upload many-many pictures that are overdued and are occupying 90% of its memory. I am still trying my best to upload them but just couldnt squeeze in sometime. Hehs.

Alright, Alright.

Goodnight.

2010-01-02T03:03:00.000-08:00

Hello 2010!

~~Goodbye 2009.~~

May this year be a better year for you, me, families, friends and everyone!

2009-12-28T03:25:00.000-08:00

babylove has already booked in back to Tekong yesterday night.

and im missing him already.

but well, at least, this week is gonna be a short one since its...

HELLO 2010!

Vanoraa NaughtyBookworm is on a mission.

2009-12-25T00:45:00.000-08:00

Let's say hello to my dearest babylove,

RECRUIT HAIRUL.

as stated in my FB status, i was too excited to meet the boy and seriously, the feelings cannot be described lah.

i was supposed to meet his parents at 8pm at Greenridge but was 15mins late. was having the *i-hate-it-when-i-cant-decide-what-to-wear* moment. i wanted to look good but at the same time i was pretty much lazy. i end up grabbing my volcom tee and a simple 3/4 pants. hahs-

we reached 15 mins earlier. but seeing some ns man queing up at the taxi stand with their big bag, we thought we were late. texted the boy and he replied that he was still at the ferry terminal.

there were many cars waited along the roadside near Whitesands. and yes, it was pretty obvious that they were waiting for these ~~boys~~man in army uniform. some hopped towards their family, some were dragging themselves, some were smiling.

and boy, my babylove was sorta skipping and smiling towards us.

i was smiling to myself (of cos`). and yes, he izz seriously very handsome. managed to give him a hug and kiss before we hopped on the car to head down to his grandparents place to celebrate Mamin's, his cousin's birthday and at the same time, to fetch Ifa, his sister.

the journey to his grandparents was all about 'Life in TekOng'. i have YET to get bored of his stories cos i just simply lovessssssssssss NS stories. hehs-

celebrated Mamin's birthday and only to head back to his place close to 12midnight.

and since babylove wanted to meet them boys, i arranged supper at Malabar (Yio Chu Kang Road) that very night. i waited for quite sometime for the boy to wash up before making our move to meet the rest.

the boys and babylove had their story telling session. chit-chatted and decided to make a move back home (while the rest chilled at Upper Pierce Reservoir) somewhere close to 3am since he was yawning non-stop. oh well, he izz so used to sleeping at 10:30pm. hahs.

its gonna be a long weekend for baby and me before he book in back to tekong on sunday night.

ohs anw, i dont give a fcuk to whatever you say or others say.

or even to whatever you think or others think.

perhaps, TRY HARDER next time.

MERRY X-MAS TO ALL~!

2009-12-23T18:34:00.000-08:00

i cant wait for another 2.5 more hours.

im all excited to see you baby.

definitely,

looking all smart and good in your long-4 (or whatever you call it),

together with your very big bag,

super tanned skin,

super big muscles (exaggerating much!).

and im sure,

ill have a hard time to search for you cos for sure, there will be

hundreds of the same you.

and of cos,

everyone is eager to see....

AYUN BOTAKBOY.

oh anw,

that picture above was taken 12 days ago while on the way to Pulau Tekong to send him.

i still got truckloads of pictures to upload~!

and yes baby,

no IC till....

ORD OHHHHH~!

its almost 6:45pm and i have yet to iron my clothes and prepare my stuff.

i dont wanna be late cos his parents will be fetching me at 8pm.

but i just have the urge to post an entry.

im too excited lah.

2009-12-21T03:04:00.000-08:00

i miss my bangs.

but whats more important is, i miss my babyboy.

2 more days.

2009-12-15T01:17:00.000-08:00

Dear Babylove,

As the day fades away and slips into night, I find myself once again clinging to my prayers. Every night I pray to God that he will keep you in his arms. I pray that he keeps you out of harm's way until we can finally be together again.

It sometimes seems so unfair that they kept you longer than they said they would. I realized when you love a soldier you can not expect anything. You asked me what I want to do about us. Well, my love, I do not want us to end.

Just because we will not be able to see each other for a long time doesn’t mean we have to give up hope. If you really love someone, the time and distance apart should not make a difference. Two years is not that long. I can wait.

I will wait for you. I wouldn't care how long I would have to wait. I would wait forever if that’s what it takes! I love you, so you have my answer. I feel the same way you do.

I love you BabyBoy. I have loved you for a very long time, and I don’t think I am going to stop loving you anytime soon.

Love always,

Babygirl.

8 more days.

2009-12-07T23:38:00.000-08:00

we're left with 4days (or rather 3 days when the clock struck 12midnight later).

i am still unprepared.

i am very afraid.

oh babylove, i just hope we will be stronger than this.

especially, the moment we enter this new phase.

this temporary seperation.

nevertheless, my feelings for you is still strong.

no matter how bitchy and selfish and flirty and this and that i am.

muahs muahs.

*and ohs, that picture above is the very FIRST picture taken when we were dating.

back in 2006.

2009-11-29T19:01:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 21st, BAQIR!

yesterday night, we celebrated baqir's birthday over at Sembawang Park. lucky thing, boyf and me wasnt even close to creating any ugly scenes. especially for myself, i was behaving all good. adi and baqir warned me not to repeat any of those ugly incidents in the past.

im pretty lazy to do a proper update. just some pictures of yday. the rest will be uploaded at my facebook (if i managed to squeeze some time to upload them).

these are the ONLY few who made baqir's party fun.

the rest are such TAK PERLUs.

and that,

i DONT even wanna upload their pictures here or there or anywhere.

(unless i decided to be nice. very unlikely!)

BUAT MENYEMAK MACAM SAMPAH-SARAP!!

and guess what?

i have a very brilliant idea.

i know what exactly to do to the mass picture that we took.

wait and see.

i just need to be mean.

hahs-

anw, thank you baqir for the invite.

if it wasnt for you, i wouldnt even wanna attend to look at some fucking losers face.

(oh yes, i know you and your friends are reading this.

you know what?!

AM VERY SORRY TO YOU (AND MAYBE, YOUR FRIENDS)

WHO JUST CAN'T SEEM TO MOVE ON.

STILL LIVING IN THE PAST?!

FUCKING, MOVE ON BABY.

((:

fucking sorry that things cant go your way.

or well, at least im glad it didnt.

HAR HAR HAR.

2009-11-18T23:38:00.000-08:00

just some random pictures to share.

and sayang-sayangss, i rindu you all.

top (from left): Fareez, Ayunn, Ian, In.

bottom (from left): Mira, Myself, Nass.

you're the best i ever had.

close to PERFECT.

babyCINTA.

prettygirls.

naughtyboys.

almost.

dont really care.

Fantatastic ~~Four~~Three.

(luqman, where are you?)

enjoying.

FUN!

i promised a proper update just before my tests.

till then;

2009-11-11T21:42:00.000-08:00

dearest babylove,

i love you.

very very very much.

anw,

Happy 3rd Anniversary!

i hate to countdown.

one more month left.

2009-11-04T15:05:00.000-08:00

Sunday, November 1 2009, 1640hr.

may you rest in peace, papa.

our prayers will always be with you.

i love you.

2009-10-23T11:14:00.000-07:00

that was last thursday. thanks to in who managed to get his dad's car and then drove us all the way to Tanjong Beach (Sentosa). it was supposed to be tanning session but the weather was not right, till we had Ayunn who taught us the Mr Sun song by Barney. and amazingly, it worked.

i have alot to update. but i have yet to find the right time to do so. will try my best during the weekends.

can't wait for tmr.

2009-10-20T01:19:00.000-07:00

first day of semester two.

first class cancelled. so, instead of starting at 8am, my class started at 12pm. still, i was half an hour late. nothing new.

accompanied the boys - ayunn, man, ariff & his friend to play pool after class. and then off to have dinner at West Coast and then, home sweet home.

last saturday was Obar. i had so so so much fun. AMAZINGLY, i behaved absolutely good that night despite being err... anw, thanks people for the night. partyy soon again.

best thing bout ~~tonight~~tmr is that... my class starts at 2pm!

2009-10-13T00:04:00.000-07:00

'kalau jadi manusia, jgn suker masok campor hal rumah tangge orang. buat menyemak dan buat tambah masalah. so please, kalau takde keje. mari sini aku kasi keje. jage kain kau sendiri, jage makkau dan bapakkau, jage kakakkau, jage adikkau, dan paling penting... JAGA DIRI KAU yang confirm tak terjage. thank you very nice'

( unless kau binatang mcm babi gemok ((: )

2009-10-07T01:52:00.000-07:00

i had shark's fin soup about 15mins ago. and i am very full. i dont know since when has i started this habit of eating at the wee hours or even crave for something which is impossible to get at that very hour. i am definitely gonna cry at the end of the month for gaining back the kilos i've lost lately.

sometimes, as weird as 3am, i can be so hungry and crave for McSpicy and can be super angry if i didnt get my special order of McSpicy with cheese.

perangai is budak gemok.

and i think i am pregnant.

monday was crazy. chivas has always been one of my favourite. i am lucky enough that the moment i stepped into the house, the parents were still sleeping. or else, i wouldnt be here.

anw, i am so looking forward for thursday. jalan raya with the abang-abangs and kakak-kakaks. too many that i rindu. looking forward. looking forward. but hey, imagine this...

16 fat people (only a few who is thin including myself squeezing in two cars. one is hyundai getz/honda fit (i think) the other is a rented 7 seater car. i am very sure the moment we get out from the car, we look like kek lapis colour-colour. hahahahahahhahahas. =x

i seriously have a lot to update. but im just a lil too tired to do a proper update. tuition tmr and i seriously am worried for my tutee who is sitting for her PSLE.

cupcakes, i love you.

and you, i love you too.

goodnights.

dont let the bed bugs bite.

2009-09-29T18:15:00.000-07:00

i am very very very the lazy to go jalan raya with the family later.

all i wanna do now, later, tmr, the day after tmr and so on...

is to just sleep sleep and sleep.

eh no.

tmr cannot sleep whole day.

tmr party2 with my girls.

2009-09-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

awesome night.

how i wished the night is forever young.

im loving every single second of this thing i called love.

2009-09-23T19:17:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah,

my results were unexpected.

Thank you Allah.

Thank you Mom&Dad for the prayers.

Thank you JieJie&TiTi.

Thank you Ayunn Babylove.

Thank you Hazah.

Thank you Fadlurrahman.

Thank you Friends.

Thank you Lecturers.

Thank you Fajar's Macdonalds.

Thank you Everyone/Everything.

Alright.

I want/need to party real soon.

anyone?

hahhahahahhahahahhahahhahhas.

This post is so colourful.

Im happy like that.

2009-09-22T18:39:00.000-07:00

Semester results will be released tmr at 11am.

but me is for sure gonna receive it much much earlier.

prolly after midnight via sms (cos i have subscribe to the sms service)/email.

my heart skipped many-many beats.

seram sejuk.

it still lingers.

yesterday night was loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2009-09-22T17:47:00.000-07:00

once again,

selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

mohon maaf zahir&batin.

alhamdulillah, Syawal was so far so good. awesome!

well anw, im pretty much lazy to do a proper entry. but no worries, i'll leave you readers with some pictures (the rest will be uploaded at facebook).

1 Syawal

feeling-feeling pengantin

mom

dad

mom&bro

dad&bro

blamed geylang the previous night (reached home close to 5am!) and i end up not going for Hari Raya prayer. and of course, im mad with myself.

sister joined us in the late afternoon since she has to work morning shift.

bro&i

that's my hairdo.

like ive said, feeling-feeling pengantin.

2 Syawal

cousin haidah&i

3 Syawal

(coming up tonight)

updates tonight. provided that im not lazy. its already 630pm and i need to prepare myself to head down to Sengkang to continue our jalan raya.

2009-09-19T04:56:00.000-07:00

i teared while hearing the takbir just now.

it has always been like that since godknowswhen.

the house is pretty clean now and is all ready for salam lebaran 2009. except for the kitchen cos' mom is still cooking. and dad is busy with lontong. brother is super busy with his hari raya cum advanced birthday gift from sister - iPhone. and myself, im busy with nothing else except facebook-ing.

i just cant wait for my surprise that mom has bought me. cos well, apparently, i helped her the most with raya preparations this year and its just a token of appreciation for me. how sweet.

everyone's personal msgs has changed to salam lebaran/selamat hari raya. and my hp has been ringing since after break fast. forwarded hari raya msgs or some mushymushy apologies and such.

and talking about phone. everyone in my family has a new phone for raya. and guess what? my freaking phone has started its perangai already. auto off and poof the screen went blank. somehow i think, its hinting that i should get myself a new phone. but hell no, im still waiting for that phone. hehs-

alright.

im gonna see what i can do to help mom. and at the same time, gonna catch some good shows over at Suria before leaving for Geylang.

yes, i know its crazy to go there tonight. but it has been my tradition to go on the eve of Hari Raya. only part packolan dier tak sanggup! but i just love the atmosphere. feeling-feeling. kecohs2. its a once a year thing. so why not?

LELONG2!

DEK MARI DEK.

TENGOK DEK, TENGOK!

AHHH MARI2!

BELI SATU DAPAT SEMUER FREE!

so fast how time flies and that we're leaving Ramadhan for Syawal.

can't wait to feeling-feeling princess/pengantin tmr cos my baju raya is in greyyish/black with silver lining - songket pengantin.

ok jom main bunga api!

selamat hari raya aidilfitri.

maaf zahir&batin.

(opps, have yet to prepare my script to mom&dad. too many sins. too many. just too many!)

2009-09-17T21:02:00.000-07:00

eh, like finally.

blogger is working.

proper updates soon.

many2 pictures.

with many2 words.

lampu kelap-kelip dah on.

everywhere.

everyone feeling-feeling besok raya!

hehs-

2009-09-04T02:35:00.000-07:00

this is for you.

(but if you're facing problems watching these videos ive uploaded, go check out my facebook.)

at 2:15am,

we couldnt put ourselves to bed. (thus, mind the PJs)

SO, THIS IS WHAT YOU GET!

and then, dear sis suggested that we do some recordings.

it was definitely a brilliant idea!!

this is what happened especially when you have your siblings sleeping in the same room as you and who is as crazy as you!

and there goes, we add on props to make it look as though we're some professionals!

the lightings were awesome, all thanks to my IKEA table lamp.

at the end of it (time: close to 4am!), we were both perspiring and laughing at our very own silly antics.

we sure did had fun.

and hopefully, there's more to come.

ok people, will keep you update about our concert soon. and yeahs, you can book us for any events. prices depends on the events. ((:

(the last one was a bit off. i accidentally dance dangdut. lol.)

thanks for the comments love.

till then;

2009-08-29T03:41:00.000-07:00

i is excited for tml.

but the thing is, i am mad with the boy.

#(@$__!#$#(($)&$

and i love my brother so much.

and of course, im already missing my sister. cos now, she's working night shift. she has already started her new job with very high pay. (time to love her more! hehs.) and that, i have no one to sleep with me. and i hate having the queen size bed all to myself. come back home quick!

oh. being the sweet ever sister, i walked her to the bus stop just so she would have someone to talk to. and guess what? i think we walked pretty slow cos we have alot to talk about and end up, she took a cab to work from bpp. hahs- but still, me is being sweet.

i love you, jie jie.

(and dad, two weeks is fast. im feeling useless and hopeless. really.)

2009-08-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

the miles are getting longer.

so long and goodbye.

somethings are better left unsaid.

(updates not anytime soon. period.)

2009-08-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

[10th August 2009 Entry]

like finally, blogger is working. and when its finally working, i pretty much am lazy to do a proper update. its 1am, and im shutting down soon. intense revision this week before me sits for my papers next week. im very worried cos i missed many lessons. dead.

my weekends were awesome. totally rock!

my saturday was spent at JB with the family. we shopped till dark. had dinner at Singgah Selalu and at the same time, we had our car washed. then played bowling and karaoke at Angsana till 11pm.

while my sunday was spent over at Anchorvale (Sengkang) to celebrate Papa's 50th. it was a surprised birthday celebration. and at the same time, we had family bonding session - fly kite at the big empty land infront of their blk. karaoke-d and then when everyones enjoying themselves playing bowling and tennis and many other games with Wii, my family departed for home since it was already closed to midnight. oh yeahs, and since it was singapore's 44th, we managed to celebrate together at home. and of course, we did pledged together and were proud to sing the National Anthem loud and clear at the windows. yes, read: windows. well actually, we werent singing. we were screaming instead to the extent whereby the residents who were walking along the road together with some banglas were looking. hahhahahas. it was funny. reached home and then head down for supper at Al-Azhar.

and yesterday, it was another family gathering at my uncle's. and the best thing is, we had sup tulang! double yummy! family bonding sessions are fun. especially when you get to meet your cousins and starts gossipping. really. and as for my family, especially the maternal side, we love doing family gatherings. hehs-

oh yeahs, not forgetting. i met up with this guy here on saturday night after his work and stuff. he wanted to drop by since he was somewhere near bukit panjang. and yeahs, thats so sweet of him or at least, so sweet of a friend who stays at Yishun. lol. by then, it was 1:30am. we did major catch ups and yadayada. and only to head home at 4plus.

done.

updates sometime later. perhaps, after exams. im off to call the boy.

nights.

2009-08-07T01:23:00.000-07:00

regret.

im afraid of what the future holds.

its time.

it s really time.

2009-08-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

[6th August 2009 Entry]

ill leave the long overdued pictures rot in my hard disk till ~~exams~~ tests are over. the best thing is, i have no exams this semester. this is because my modules are all ICA modules.

songs that gave me flashback of those bitter sweet memories really knocked me hard on my damn thick skull/brain. im not saying its a bad thing. oh well, at least, it made me realised how ~~good~~ i am playing with people's feelings. and till today, i still have yet to forgive myself for the pile of shit ive given to some of you or rather, most of you.

i had a good chat with a friend. and she mentioned on a lot of things that really makes sense. and yes, indeed, im very worried. we cant predict the future. well at least, we can try to do something to avoid it or ensure things are moving on the right track. good enough to avoid any regrets.

anw, the short video call with pei wei was funny. i was telling him about my ex whom was in the news, Hamdan. we were updating each others life when he then told me how much he misses his damn long rebonded mohawk (imagine people!). he even showed me all his tattoos that can be found on his body. and i pretty much love the astro boy tattoo and the very big mushroom which look like a ladybird on his hand. hahhahahas. and he was asking for suggestions for a tattoo on his neck. and i suggested, a picture of a kiss together with the name, Vanoraa.

moving on.

i met somebody in school today. and yes, its pretty obvious he is still mad at me over what happened a year or two ago. and i pretty much hate such situations cos we will be ignoring each other or even to the extend of showing fucked faces. we used to be damn close/good friends before this incident, but look at us now. we're so much worst than what was the last thing in my mind. and because of this, i lost many instead of one. im sorry. i really am.

didnt even learn from my mistakes. but instead, i repeat them yet again. and this time, was to people whom are related to love. and as a result, their friendship were ruined. thanks to my stupid act which yes, up till today, i have yet to apologise to them. and i know, a friend of yours is reading this. im sorry. well i hope, things will get better in time.

i have a list of names of people whom i wanna apologise. dont bother asking why i am this emo today. i just find the need. i have a lot more to share but i need to move on to some serious and much more important stuff. i have an assignment due tmr (as in later!).

its already 1:15am and i have yet to prepare for tmr's interview with two of my lecturers. and i have 8am class instead of the usual 10am.

i realised i have so much to learn from especially after the break up incident of a 5years rship of a friend of mine. i really need to do some serious thinking about my future.

2009-08-02T23:24:00.000-07:00

thank you esha sweetheart for that very short entry dedicated for me over at your blog. alhamdulillah, im recovering. and babe, you dont forget to take care of yourself too. have plenty of rest cos yeahs, i know, we all know, the participants for ndp are all drained out and might just collapse anytime due to the intense training which will soon be done and over this sunday.

oh well. on a brighter note, did i tell you i managed to pass all my tests with very good results. and im very very very happy with the results cos the hours burnt at fajar macdees were worth it. and i even scored highest for Geotechnical Engg. and scored B+ for my language presentation (i.e. report writing and presentation) and the written test, 76. hopefully, im able to maintain good results till the end of this year. insyallah. Aminn...

im still contemplating whether or not to head to school tml. reason being, i have a final rehearsal at 5pm for my psychology skit on wednesday. yes, read: 5pm! im still on MC. i need more rest at home! my throat still hurts!

i have a list of things to blog but im just too lazy. i cant wait for boyf to be home cos i wanna have our usual late night conversations. and i already have things in mind to ~~bitch~~ about. and hahs, i still cant stop laughing at how boyf wants me to keep my minahs character or whatsoever you called it. very cute.

ok baby,

i promise i tak jadi kakak2 minah yang fierce.

i promise i tak marah2.

i promise i tak pukul bantai you or pukul bantai makhluk Tuhan yang lain.

i promise i tak up with any stupid acts yang boleh mencederakan some people.

i promise i tak naughty2.

i promise i tak bitchy2. (eh ni part susah siket. i kan perempuan. kiter ni suker bitchy2 you!)

i promise i err... (byk sgt promises pon susah. nanti tak keep them)

last sekali,

i ~~promise~~ sayang you many2.

Loves;

2009-08-01T19:44:00.000-07:00

am having 5 days MC.

fever, cough, sore throat and flu.

Alhamdulillah, nothing close to H1N1.

like i've told you.

the truth is sure to leak out someday.

and yes, it already did.

and i must say, i'm very proud of you for telling the truth.

2009-07-23T15:17:00.000-07:00

i wont be surprised if i were to gain 5kg or more right before raya. the thing is, ive been eating McSpicy with cheese meals almost everyday. how i wished, SP Macd meals are of the normal price. so at least, i'll think twice or thrice or countless times before buying them. tsk.

i have many reports due this week. but my classmates and i are asking for extensions. and lecturers are usually weak at this. hahs- and another major thing that is occupying a whole lot of my leisure time is, fyp.

thank god, today's meeting with our Supervisor - Mr Teo was fine. our layout and content was good. just that we need to amend some points. and our draft report due on 7th Aug. pressure! pressure!

and when we're super lazy to head down to the gate to smoke, we ended up smoking in the ulu u-shape toilet (see above). its usually me who suggested to smoke in there cos im just freaking lazy. and im sure, one day, we will be caught. hahas-

'EH NAQQ. WHERE ARE YOU? I FUCKING SIAN. ALONE SIA SMOKING. COME BACK GATE LEHSS. SMOKE WITH ME!' -hanfeng.

2009-07-22T01:11:00.000-07:00

no matter how far or near you are, i miss you too.

whatever happened to us?

2009-07-20T15:03:00.000-07:00

SCHOOL.

3 more hours till im free. me is very tired and how i wished im able to skip later class. but according to my lecturer, he has very important things to discuss. tsk.

yesterday was fun. and im still very tired. i think im gonna get sick soon. the throat is painful. even to swallow my saliva.

this is random.

very.

2009-07-18T17:38:00.000-07:00

GASAK KAU LA POMPAN.

ASLKAN KAU BAHAGIA SUDAH.

(tak cukup bahagia ke gambar atas ni?)

OTAK KAU UHS.

2009-07-18T15:51:00.000-07:00

last week was chaotic and wild. i barely sleep and definitely was having problems everywhere. i remembered walking with my eyes half opened - walking like a zombie with no destinations. nothing/noone else to blame but myself. i have this bad habit of doing my reports, assignments, projects and presentation slides to somewhere very near its dateline. and when the day comes, i'll start cursing. really.

last tuesday was crazy. ended class at 4 and headed back home straight. did my powerpoint slides for microbiology presentation the following day and at the same time, waited for dearest hazah to end work. at 12am, celebrated mom's birthday and off i went to Fajar Macdees to meet up with her.

(back to story)

it was already 12++ midnight and of course, our brains were not operating. we almost dozed off at times when we stared blankly on our lappies. the most fucked up thing was, our team members consist of 5 of us. and only 3 did the work. and im not even shy to say this, that dearest hazah and me did 95% of the work. im glad i have very cooperative team members. awesome!

we didnt stop muching on snacks and buying meals just to ensure that we're awake and that we're on the right track. smoke breaks when the eyes almost shut. and only to make a move back home at 5am! (READ: 5am!)

thank god, boyf just reached home from work and that he insisted to fetch me from Macdees knowing that i'm defnitely very sleepy and tired to drag my legs back home. (when the actual fact is, he knows i'm a lil scared to go back home alone! hehs-) so while waiting for him to take his shower and fetch me, i ordered the Macdees $2.50 meal for brother since he wanted to eat them for breakfast that morning.

we had our usual conversation before heading to bed and i've lost count on how many times i slept on him on the phone that very week. told ya! my weeks been hectic and that i was super duper exhausted. felt as though i slept for only 30mins and had to prepare myself to school. that very morning, the weather was awesome. it rained and that it was all cool and best for me to continue on my beauty sleep.

fetched hazah at her house and off to school. some shit happened and that one of my team member didnt turn up for the presentation. obviously, i was damn pissed cos we already split the slides out. end up, hazah and me did her part for the slides which was a lil cocked up.

and the best part was, our lecturer said ours were good. she was having a difficult time to bombard us with questions during the Q&A. she even said that our slides were very detailed and she likes it. thumbs up!

apart from the presentation, my class had a practical test on CE Technology (Constructing a Flyover/Underground tunnel/Road Diversion - the machineries used and how it is being carried out?). though it was only 5%, my group and i gave our best shot despite using the wrong methods. well, its the learning experience that we gained.

and guess what?

last wednesday, fareez, adi, boyf and i headed down to Beach Road for sup tulang. all thanks to boyf who was craving for it since monday. then we chilled somewhere there and headed back home around 9pm since i have to attend a dinner cum celebrating mom's birthday. and since my siblings were pretty much lazy to head somewhere far for seafood or something else, dad suggested we had al-azhar. i didnt eat cos the sup tulang was still fresh in my stomach! i had very very nice ice kacang. al-azhar has the best ice kacang. and me loves!

(anw anw, beach rd toilet now very niceeeeeeeeeeee already - see pic below)

(saw meow but i dont think she recognised me. plus, i am with no/very light make up!)

well, thats all for this week.

and my saturday will be a boring saturday cos boyf's working and later tonight, i'll be at Fajar Macdees, AGAIN, to finish up all the assignments and reports and also to prepare for my fyp presentation on ConSass this coming wednesday. looks like Fajar Macdees will be dearest hazah and me second home. hahahhas. overnight yet again.

if possible, i would have split today's tasks to tmr but since tmr i'll be super packed with special occasions, i shall just squeeze everything to today. the major events are: firstly, a relative wedding somewhere at East. then, the july mak-maks (includes mom!) and bapak-bapaks birthday celebration @ Bedok (maternal). followed by, another birthday celebration for mom and aunt (paternal) @ Kembangan. i just love bonding session like this.

till then.

much loves;

2009-07-17T00:49:00.000-07:00

i am very angry with this someone,

but still, i still find this cute!

kurus mcm lidi - boyf

gemok mcm bola - aku.

cantik sekali.

thanks eh ayunn.

just bear with me.

proper updates sometime soon.

2009-07-10T00:47:00.000-07:00

and like finally, PHEW~!

im able to upload pictures up here. been having problems uploading them since days ago.

i wont be uploading the whole chunk of overdued pictures right here right now. perhaps, during the weekends or something. the past weeks been hectic. and so are the upcoming weeks and months.

here's a quick hightlight.

Re-Union with Loved Ones.

Town then Haji Lane.

Hani's (Ody's Love) Birthday

Costa Sand Resort (Downtown)

Shopping with Mom & Sis!

Main Highlight: Dinner @ Tambuah Mas Restaurant (Paragon)

SummerLove Bonding&Bitching Session

Suntanning @ Sentosa with Dearest Hazah.

Kak Opy's (Cousin) House Warming @ Anchorvale (Sengkang)

Sleepovers and Happy Hours.

Just Like Good Old Days.

Ice Age 3 (3D) @ Vivocity.

Land Transport Authority (LTA) Site Visit @

Holland Village MRT Station (Circle Line)

Long Hour Break = Games.

CLUEDO!

i seriously thinks he has a girlf.

(will tell you more about it some other time)

HAHAS-

and this is me NOW.

i seriously need to do something with myself!!!!

2009-07-03T02:42:00.000-07:00

not now.

not anytime soon.

keep you tags flowing.

2009-06-30T12:10:00.001-07:00

i was and am still having much difficulties uploading pics here.

me is very pissed.

almost 4am and i am still wide awake.

must be the long sleep i had in the afternoon.

and i freaking have 8am class tml which will only last for 1hr!

thats my wednesday.

but all i care now is, the tanning session with dearest hazah later.

then, shopping shopping!

BUT the best thing is, i cannot find my bikini.

found the old one which is so old and small.

still digging!

bag not pack yet.

my mat.

my tanning oil which i have no idea where i placed it!

my towel.

my shampoo.

my conditioner.

my moisturizer.

my favourite bra.

my colourful leopard spots panty.

many many more things.

have yet to iron my clothes for later.

i can just forget about sleeping.

really.

overrrexcited i guess.

tsk.

2009-06-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

me is starting school tmr. and of course, i am feeling all excited cos im sick and tired of staying home. i miss my classmates, i miss bullying the lecturers and begging for breaks, i miss copying tutorials, i miss skipping classes, i miss the school library, i miss cheap McDonalds meals, i miss vandalising the tables, i miss smoking in the toilets, i miss going for long self proclaimed breaks, i miss smoking with the guys at the busstop, i miss foodcourt 3 cheap chicken cutlet rice, i miss papaya milk juice, i miss alot alot alot of things. and ouhs, i miss Namira! (yeahs baby, i miss you fcuken much!)

thus, therefore, i am so looking forward for school tmr. plus, i'll be getting my results for the last term tests. ((:

this is indeed, very random.

you know sometimes, my dearest boyf can be so fcuken sweet...

thank you very much for flooding me with these mails. me is super happy. and i like how you put in much effort uploading different pictures of us at almost every mails. (READ: 198MAILS!)

baby, i sayanggggggggggggggg you! *insert suara mentel!*

and as usual, im having a hard time deciding what to wear tmr.

2009-06-27T23:37:00.000-07:00

0.01% of me fucking much regret bitching about her yesterday with didicupcakes. it was obvious, i was, i am, still, fucking mad over the past issues. so, i dont give a fuck. i fucking enjoyed the bitching sessions with didicupcakes cos its fucking aweeeeesomeeeeeeeee. like totally!

god knows what went through my mind at that point of time. i was super double mean. and yes, 0.01% of me regret on yesterday's bitching session. cos why? she fucking appeared in my dreams. or rather, it was hell my WORST NIGHTMARE ever!

woke up with eyes super swollen. the fucking nightmare made me cried. oh perempuan, look what you've done. so, the first thing i did was to call boyf. (time was around 9plus. and its very very rare for me to wake up that early cos my usual timing to wake up is after ONE!)

me: byy, good morning! where you?

him: ehh, why you so sweet? asal tibe2 call and ckp good morning?

so thats me. i am never that sweet girlf to call him the moment i wake up everyday just to say good morning. unless, i feel like being super extra sweet and that if i want him to take me out on that very day with surprises. hahs-

then i told him about the nightmare and he bahasekan aku!

'dont say me. you're always the one leaving me for another guy.'

sungguh pedas.com

aku tengah sedih-sedih, emo-emo... last last aku dibahasekan.

best eh!

i even apologised cos me is super bitchy during our late night conversation over the cellphone yesterday night. and i lost count on how many i love yous i said to him. then, at the very next moment after we hung up, he texted.

'yesterday i was so pissed. luckily you called. you mcm dah tahu je i nak msg you. nak marah you.'

and then we exchanged i love yous and became so loving. hahs-

(drama mama!)

up till this very moment, i am so afraid of her. im afraid that everything that happened in my nightmare will come to reality. i swear, if that happens, im gonna kill her and chop her fucking dead body into pieces.

funny thing was, boyf had a very bad dream too the other day. and yes, he cried just like i did just because in his dreams, he came to my wedding and see me from far sitting on the dais with someone else. and he told me, tears didnt stop rolling down. touchinggg kann..

sayang you!

yes, this is super random but i dont give a fucking shit. ive been backspacing since just now. i wanna post it up here but i dont wanna be soo mean. hahas.

smells of durians.

sedappppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp.

aku nak makan durian.

taa`.

2009-06-27T02:11:00.000-07:00

i totally had a good laugh with dearest cupcake for almost 3hours. we were having our usuals gossip and bitching sessions - everything and anything under the moon. and i so love the fact that our minds think alike. hahs-

and here's something to share: go search for a boyf, save money and get married.

amekkau!

2009-06-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

i was cleaning up the memory space in my lappy and guess what i found?

an old pic of me and my cupcake; diyana.

(so kental nak mampos! diy i laughed non-stop siaaaaaaaaaaaa. our hair sumpah pendek!)

and this was taken way back in May 2007 during our boyf's (ayun's & ozzy's) birthday. definitely, dearest cupcake and me had so much fun baking cupcakes for our birthday boys and end up, we meletopkan oven! hehs-

and this, was taken recently - June 2009.

look cupcakes!

we've grown up!

(we're ~~sexy~~ like that!)

(and ouhs, our longg hair. hehs-)

and this year bday celebration for the boys was a blast.

and i just cant wait for my 21st! (and of course, diy's 18th)

and to dearest cupcake,

me lovesss you alot.

thank you for everything.

2009-06-20T23:01:00.000-07:00

i am very keen that things will slowly get back to normal.

and that, my love for you is still standing strong.

baby, im sorry for everything that happened lately.

thank you for being here, right at this very moment, which i need you the most.

i can never ask for anything more.

i am totally blessed that i've found you.

you're my one and only,

hairul nizam.

2009-06-18T19:39:00.000-07:00

i had my x-ray this morning and i was cursing since then cos i was super double sleepy. (slept at almost 4am!) woke up to sister's irritating voice asking me to shower since im known for the slowest to siap. so yeahs, i dragged my feet to the toilet with my eyes half opened.

i slept at any and every chances i had. and up to this very moment, i am still very sleepy. so anw, everyone else in my family has been discharged. and for myself, i have another appointment on the 8th of July cos according to the doctor, there's some black dots on my lungs. and they have yet to know what are those. so, she gave me an antibiotic and i have to complete the course within 10 days. and after which, i'll have another x-ray to see if the black dots are still there. if they're still there, i'll have to do another consultation and yadayada.

right at this very moment, i feel like throwing my box of cigg. cos i think they're the main cause for the black dots! ok whatever. i can just ditch the idea of throwing my box of cigg cos im already craving for a stick. hahs-

its almost 8 and i have yet to iron my clothes or even pack my bag. if boyf knows im blogging now instead of preparing myself, i'll have my head chop off. or worst both my twins will be gone. hehs-

i am very very tired. and that im heading to haney's (ody's girlf) chalet later at costa sand. i guess ill be sleeping on the bike. (imagine the long journey from Bukit Panjang to Pasir Ris!!) and i dont think boyf and i will overnight cos i might be having a site visit for my final year project tmr (am still waiting for hazah's msg/call).

and oh ohs,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZULFADHLI.

i am very sorry. i wished i could tag along with the boys for the mini celebration but i already have plans. anw bro, just so you know, me miss you ok. take care and enjoy your 20th!

till then;

ps: some pictures are already up at Facebook.

2009-06-13T16:38:00.000-07:00

i am very angry with dearest nur khatijah lamri. we couldnt reach you. so, if you're reading this, we're meeting at Far East at 5:30pm. you very irritating lehs. go throw your hp please. thank you.

its already 4:41pm and im meeting them at 5:30. have yet to shower, have yet to iron clothes, have yet to pack my stuff. im sure gonna be late. the guys been calling me since 4pm.

ciao bella.

2009-06-13T03:03:00.000-07:00

like finally, my kakak's wedding pictures are up at my facebook. and i still have chunks to upload. especially boyf's surprised birthday party since everyone has been asking me about it. soon uhs soon. give me time lehs. alot of pictures you know!

and right now, my legs, hands, body and everything are aching due to the jog i had earlier this evening. and i am very very very disappointed with myself cos i see no point i went for a jog when i just had McSpicy with additional cheese an hour ago (time check: 3:32am!). and yes, im gonna go for jogging again. maybe tmr. hopefully, i can really cut down on my huge appetite lately. mcm babi~!

i was asked to hit the club today. but i decided to ditch the idea since im left with afew dollars to last me for tmr's meet up with the loved ones. yays~! like finally. i just hope i can have a proper meet up with the smoke machine gang. my girls are like some super busy business woman. im so gonna grab their teteks when i meet them.

its been some time girls. im desperate for the raba-raba of teteks and pussies. the bitching sessions. the super mentel moments. the screaming moments. the saper kahwin dulu moments. the never ending laughters. syadah's contagious laughter. and yes, the list can go on and on. and please, i need some joget-joget moments with you girls too. so girls, proper meet up soon ok.

i cant wait for the plans i have for next week. and the may-jahhhh one would be the sleepovers at sengkang. i'll be flying kite with the cousins and of course, with dearest baby nuryl. i heard their new house is big and that they have an empty land in front of their blk. thus, they suggested we fly kite. and they even reminded me to bring along my running shoes and swimsuit/bikinis cos we'll be jogging and swimming. dearest kelly suggested that we play dress up (just like the other time). totally up for that. and our back up plan is to hit the clubs.

and me schedule is very hectic next week.

-Fyp on monday. plus, a test which i've missed (and best part is, i have yet to study!!)

-TB Check up at Tan Tock Seng.

-Sophie aarons will be meeting me on tuesday (temporary). she just love making me jealous cos she managed to get a hug from Utt. YES, UTT! me is very jealous to the max!

-meet up with kakak cos she's been complaining that she misses both her Personal Assistants so much.

-dinner with the brothers (ghaz and company) whom i rindu tersangat-amat. (waiting for ghaz's msg)

-movie with cousins.

-kite flying.

-jogg jogg jogg.

-sleepovers.

-and more sleepovers.

-date with boyfku. (hahs-)

its already 4:10am.

im tired of waiting.

very sleepy.

i'll have my last stick before i hit the sack.

much loves;

2009-06-12T03:04:00.000-07:00

earlier this morning, my family and i (except sister) headed down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital together with grandma and bibik. grandma had her TB check up while the rest of us had our injection to see if we're infected with TB since we're staying under one roof. precautions you see. and monday, i have to head there again to see the results. and then, another injection followed by another check up. mah fan. super mah fan.

anw, i am very angry with dear khairul azree. he made me wait like tutu (i created this word) cos we're supposed to meet for our Psychology module project since wednesday. but we've been postponing. and today, he made me wait till i fall asleep and began texting me saying sorry. hahs- i pretended i was angry. it was fun seeing him being all sorry.

now that i foresee my weekends will be very dull, i am so not looking forward for weekends. i dont know whether i should be happy or not. the fact that i'll have lesser time to spend with him cos we're so used to head out every weekends (and weekdays and everyday!) aiyahs, whatever it is, you work then pay for my fine ok. $300 only. not expensive lars to you.

the two kids are over at my place - hanan and hasanah. and they're with their non-stop stories. hahs- and telling us about the Hannah Montana Movie which i have yet to watch. everyone has been telling me to catch it since its worth the mahnayeee.

anw, here's my favourite pic of my kakak's wedding - the cousins. i have yet to upload the whole chunk to my facebook. soon uhs soon.

im pretty tired. i took quite sometime to do a new blogskin which im so satisfied with. i decided to make it simple and plain. so, here you go.

i wanna hit the sack. its 3:30am already. i have so many things to do tmr.

sometimes i wonder if im asking too much.

2009-06-09T01:47:00.000-07:00

and like phew~!

finally the wedding is over.

it was a BLAST!

its already 1:50am and im still not in bed.

so, tell me about it.

anw, i shall post the pictures up at facebook soon.

and will definitely upload a proper entry soon.

2009-06-06T11:32:00.000-07:00

the presentation was awesome! the fact that my lecturer said my group was the best among others. hard effort was paid off. earlier yesterday morning, i was having a hard time searching for my formal pants cos i hate the fact that when i wear a skirt, i have restricted movements. and yes, indeed, i was having a hard time especially when sitting on the bike. damn it!

cabbed down to school since i was super late. presentation starts at 12 and best part is, i left house at 1145am. first, i forgot to bring my MC for last week. secondly, it was difficult to get a cab even though i stayed at the main road.

and guess what? my last paper was manageable. ((:

so, after the paper, went to take my C902 phone which was sent for repair and back home to my crib. and since everyone including myself were starving, i decided to be nice and cook. i didnt really cook dishes. just fried some eggs.

boyf: eh, you tak tahu goreng telur? (you dont even know how to fry eggs??)

me: OK DIAM LAARS.

i suck being a girl. goreng telur pon aku tak pass. minyak letak siket - satu tablespoon. anak saper ni goreng telur minyak siket gitu?!!!

so end up, boyf was the one who fried the eggs for my cousins who were over to chill before heading off to kakak's place. hahs. it was hillarious.

cleaned the house and ironed some clothes. at the same time, waited for dad to fetch me to head down to kakak's place to help out with the wedding preps. upon reaching, she was doing the henna. (will upload the pictures soon!)

yadayada.

anw, im pretty sad that i cant make it for boyf's sis bday chalet today since dearest cousin is getting married. i cant wait! i cant wait!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK RUNEE!

oh oh.

the day before yesterday, boyf and i went for a hair cut and he decided that i have bangs. so there you go. thank god it turned out good.

alright alright its already 12pm and i have yet to have my shower.

ciao bella;

2009-06-04T14:01:00.000-07:00

im all excited for dearest kakak's wedding this weekend. though i didnt help much with the prep. im so so so excited like as though im the one who is getting married. and yes, tmr will be my last paper.

i have so many things to update. after all, the hen's party for kakak's over at Pump Room last saturday was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. we sure did have lotsa fun. plus, abang-abang bouncer, very nice! hahs- and i managed to smoke and had a lil chit chat session with one of them.

arena was fucked up. i pretty much hate it when we cant get through khaty's friend who is working there; bouncer. and we end up not going in there cos of some stupid reasons. i suggested rebel or zouk; phuture. but they wanted Pump Room. tsk.

anw, im in need of $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.

desperate. desperate. desperate.

im getting super lazy to upload pictures up in here. ill have them upoaded either in my facebook or multiply. (but will keep you informed!)

im desperate for a getaway. i want to go tioman but im short of $$$$. bloody fine!

and ouhs, i need to workkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

boyfriend, can i workkkkkkkkkkk for you?

pay me thousands and thousands of dollars can?

nak jugak! nak jugak!

last tuesday was funny. i was chilling at boyfs place and end up sleeping till 4am the very next day. forced him to send me home. lucky thing, both parents were asleep and that they didnt ask much. hahs-

and yesterday was movie marathon at boyfs crib together with fareez. had nasi briyani for dinner. chilled awhile and chatted with his parents then off back home. was rather early (11pm!). andandand, im looking forward for the getaway with boyf's family.

i need to head down to school now to print some notes. im super duper lazy cos its already 2:20pm and that the weather is super panasssssssssssssss.

ok bye.

this entry is so not needed.

i know.

anw, my elective test was easy.

((:

2009-06-01T20:48:00.000-07:00

i have this urge. but, i shall not and must not be mean.

on the not-so bright side, i have my elective test tmr at 9am which both hazah and i had totally no idea. so, in another words, i have 2 papers tml. deep trouble.

its almost 9pm and i have yet to shower. im meeting her sooooooooooooon at macdees, to study. (like durhs!)

oh btw, todays test is so-ok-ok-but-anw-i-did-try-my-best-which-i-think-i-can-only-manage-a-just-pass. tsk. disappointment.

i know this post is so redundant but who cares!

and to my always-marah-marah boyf, wo ai ni~!

2009-05-24T20:39:00.000-07:00

im still at kakak's crib waiting for both parents, mak long and ayah to come back from JB (to buy some wedding stuff for kakak's). and upon reaching singapore, they'll call us so that we could slowly stroll down to Al-Amein woodlands to have our dinner there with them.

earlier this afternoon, we four had our lunch at Seoul Garden - Causeway Point. and im still very full right now and have no idea what to eat later over at Al-Amein. (perhaps, just prata.) i am super mcm paham cos lately my appetite, Ya ampun... hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu. hahs-

i just pretty much love how the bond between us is much stronger now eversince knowing kakak is getting married in less than 2 weeks. hahahas. i am so excited. (minus the fact that i cant tag along for the manicure on tuesday and some other wedding preps due to my tests that very week of her wedding!)

well at least, my tests are right before the vacation (for other schools, their tests fall on the week after the vacation and that i bet these people wont study for the test till the very last week. just like i did for the past semesters). and that i dont have to worry much cos i can at least work or do some fruitful things during the vacation. (and yes, we've been postponing the tioman trip!)

the sleeping beauties are snoring! (attention: Kakak & Sister!!!).

ill be super packed with things for the next few weeks and that, this blog will be left to rot.

till then;

2009-05-24T00:53:00.000-07:00

Vanoraa Naughty Bookworm says:

KALAU SEMUER ORANG GI ZOUK MALAM NI, SAYER PERGI MANER?!

(zouk - hello ariff mabok!)

Jawapannyerrr: DOK RUMAH BUAT POWERPOINT SLIDES FOR PRESENTATION NEXT WEEK. AND ALSO, STUDY FOR THE UPCOMING TESTS!

yes, im rotting on a saturday.

no regrets cos ive completed my part of the presentation.

*thumbs up!*

and guess what?

its 1:05am and kalau orang party kene paham sebab takde maser nak msg.

and plus, kalau dah party, dah mabok, tak ingat dunieeeerrrrr!

so, aku pon tak kesa lars.

paham paham dan mcm paham.

ill have my first and last stick of the day before i head off to bead.

good night.

2009-05-22T11:45:00.000-07:00

very funny.

HA HA HA.

did i ever mention that i dont really care?

oh well, cos i really dont.

nope, we dont.

((:

anyway, the weekends are here.

like finally!

i can forget about partying or whatever cos my tests are just around the corner.

and i have yet to touch the notes.

best thing is, i have yet to print them. (already the 5th week!)

AWESOME EHHH!

and i have alot of presentations.

=x

class ending real soon.

updates tonight. (maybe. lol)

2009-05-16T02:19:00.000-07:00

EDITTED/

1) i just have to strike off the plan i made on the 19th cos someone already has his own plans. ((:

2) i am still searching for $300.

3) i am very binget with some~~people~~ one.

4) as you like.

5) i wont entertain anything close to that.

6) i spent almost $100 today.

7) i am super duper broke.

8) i am so DEAD!

9) i know what im doing.

10) i am very sleepy.

11) i dont and i wont.

anw in, thanks for yesterday!

goodnight.

count down.

2009-05-14T11:19:00.000-07:00

tell me where can i get $300 within this two weeks.

and the boy's birthday in less than a week.

and im totally desperate for $300.

)(*$_#%*$#_^%)@^*%)#%#%$@#

2009-05-11T15:05:00.000-07:00

its already 3:05am and like finally, im done with my powerpoint slides for tmr's presentation. i totally forgot about the presentation till hazah told me that both the report and presentation due tmr. then i suggested ,she sleep over at my place so that it will be much easier for us to discuss (cos, we were both having difficulties discussing over msn!)

ok, we're both very sleepy.

goodnight.

and the best thing is that, my class starts at 8am later!!

anw, its the 11th!

happy 31st baby.

me love you!

2009-05-10T15:05:00.000-07:00

im trying to squeeze sometime to do a short update before i start preparing myself to head over to aunt normah's crib at punggol to do a mass mothers' day celebration for all mothers (aunts and grandmas).

the past weeks were totally hectic. too many things happened and were out of control. really. but despite all that, i managed to party at Zouk last thursday with friends. and definitely, no more partying till tests are over (end of the month). and i've yet to start revising and i can see myself struggling.

as much as you readers want me to do a proper update with lotsa pictures, i want the same too. just that, i couldnt find the time to squeeze in for one. plus, been busy with kakak's wedding preparation. she's getting married in less than a month.

and yesterday's sleepover at her crib was awesome. massive revamp of her room. the boys painted the walls. i wrote names on the wedding invitation cards. it was fun. totally. later that night, we wanted to catch a midnight show - Jangan Tegur at 1155pm. but at 11pm, all of us have yet to wash up. hahs-

so we striked off that idea and decided for supper at Admiralty Mac. great laughters and how helped both kakak and abang to plan the route back home. cos, Admiralty has alot of stories. and i really mean alot (Misteri Jam 12). and then walked back home to Woodlands Drive 14. yes, it was that far.

by then, it was only 1plus. so, we decided to chill at the takraw court nearby and talk about everything under the dark red clouds (with lightning) till it was almost 4. had my usual late night conversation (after so longggggggggggggggggggggg!) then off to bed.

its already 3:30 and im late.

tsk.

2009-05-05T01:50:00.000-07:00

its already 1:50am and im still here at Beauty World MacDs. accompanied man at work and at the same time accompanied dear sis who is studying for her exams. (anw, anw im not even stoning or whatever. im doing my tutorials and a lil recap to what has been taught earlier this morning during lecture) unbelievable? yes, indeed.

and the best part is, im having class at 8am later. how cool is that?

its been sometime since i met man - did some catch ups. he has been skipping school cos he super bolot. want to work and work and work cos he wanna be a millionaire at the end of this year. hahs- right man?

i hate sp cos now they implemented this stupid rule (alright, fine. reasonable enough uhs.) starting from today, we have to wear landyards within school campus. and securities will be at the main gates to check our admin cards just to ensure that we belong to sp and that no outsiders enter our campus (they're too afraid that these strangers bring in Influenza A or whatever viruses. and yes, there are fences almost everywhere. and ouhs, thermometers are needed too. and temperature taking at 8am and one in the afternoon just like those times back in 2003 (if im not wrong) during the SARS outbreak.

ok ok whatever. i have yet to find the perfect time to do a proper update. right now, my eyes are half shut. my brain has already shut down. and dearest man has left for home. i am very full ( i had mcspicy meal) and i need my bed. right now.

goodnight.

i miss being your naughtybookworm.

hehs-

ok yays.

im going home ready!!

2009-05-03T15:30:00.000-07:00

truth is, i love you.

very much.

thus, therefore, hence, im against whatever is in your mind.

anw, friday was tanning with these boys.

me had fun and me loveeeeeeeeeeeeee.

updates soonn.

2009-05-01T02:47:00.000-07:00

i heard someone has a jeep.

ahaaa, i shall check it out. i wished we (includes the rest) could go back to good old days. im missing those times and of course, i miss you people even more!

ohs yars, the doors are open. by all means. i just pretty much dislike it.

i think its pretty clear.

i have a list. and i have things to settle.

and talking bout list, i am very disappointed with myself.

something is wrong with me.

well at least, on a brighter note, i have something to look forward to next week (unlike this week). the party that we have arranged. cos its been sometime. and im that desperate.

its almost 3am and i think i made the most stupidest decision or whatever you call. i am very pissed with myself. and you.

alright goodnight. im done here.

you just need to read in between the lines.

ill be meeting mr sun tmr.

((:

2009-04-25T14:13:00.000-07:00

i've just transferred all the pictures from my cellphone to the lappy which were so long overdued. so, you just gotta bear with me cos it will take elephant years to upload them here. (worst come to worst, i'll upload them up at multiply)

alright alright mira, i'll upload many many pictures for you. i know my blog is so mundane lately. just some short paragraphs of something which make no sense and worst, no pictures at all.

so anw, first week of school and things were so hectic. first day of school and lecturers already talked about assignments, presentations and yes, fyp.

this will be a short one.

promised you that i'll upload pictures up here if i have the time later (if im not heading out).

i am very hungry and i want to cook mee square-square.

hahs-

i have a lot of things to start next week.

and i dont really care what you have got to say.

((:

2009-04-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

eh mat.

aku tido lagi best.

yang tu, tu, tu,

kau nyer pasal.

ok bye.

2009-04-22T00:01:00.000-07:00

dearest boyf,

i just wanna tell you that i love you so much.

i received a surprise from boyf.

a huge big surprise.

and me love.

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LIKE FINALLY!

the ride was fun.

feeling2 you.

HELLO DRZ!

dirtaye rides soon!

hehs-

2009-04-21T00:35:00.000-07:00

i am very excited for ~~tml~~ later.

DRZ lars sehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i need to sleep.

bye.

oh anw, the pic above was taken at Mira's flea market at Tanglin Mall last saturday.

2009-04-17T17:34:00.000-07:00

i just hung up on a phone call with someone. someone who is supposed to fetch me from work cos i am super double lazy to go home by public. bus service 700 can be a bitch at times. (well most of the times during peak hours!!) and not only that, he (read:HE) usually pick me up from work. so you know the feeling when suddenly he called to tell you that he wont be able to pick you up cos why? he is at the bike shop. i am sumpah very mad at you, boyfriend. serious.

this is what happened when you are too pampered....

i am still at work but im done with everything. printed out my report. got my pay for this month which is a dissappointment. (MC AGAIN LARSS!!) today marks my last day at SM1 and dearest me bought me colleagues and boss some gifts. of course, i am very sad to leave.

i am so excited for school. hehs-

ok bye.

i'll continue blogging at home. i wanna go shopping alone after this.

loves;

(boyf, i am still very mad at you!)

2009-04-14T00:19:00.000-07:00

just as i thought everythings gonna be fine, it turned out the other way.

last week was hectic. really hectic. cos firstly, grandma was admitted. secondly, i had many projects due. thirdly, i have yet to complete my reports. then, it was the 11th (love's and mine special day). and of course, followed by the very last minute sleepovers at love's crib.

and this week, is the very last week for me. and i seriously dont wanna leave work. but at the same time, i miss school. school's starting real soon.

whatever.

i know i have yet to do a proper update.

soonnnnnnn. ((:

im sorry love.

i love you.

2009-03-28T13:36:00.000-07:00

having many irons in the fire, i ended up having no time to update this rusty and decayed blog of mine. well, the fact is, ive been busy working my ass off just to earn that extra mooolahs. and i swear, i hate working life (and im dying for me time!) knowing that you have to wake up at 6:30am everyday and had to drag your feet and (of course)yourself to work. seriously, staying in the office for 8-9hrs is freaking hell.

nevertheless, i love bus journeys to work (minus the fact i have to change buses). it has been my daily routine to walk to Bukit Panjang Int. every morning to board bus service 700, so as to get myself a seat. reason being, i need to continue my beauty sleep. sometimes, i rather be slightly late for work then to stand throughout the journey. hahs- yes, indeed, im that desperate.

so yeahs, im currently working at SM1 Consulting Engineering (yes, somewhat related to my course of study) located at Balestier Hill Shopping Centre. and since the first day of work, ive been doing AutoCAD. it isnt as bad as it may sound. i learned alot and definitely, it will be a fruitful experience for me.

the colleagues are awesome! and since im the youngest, i am/was always being pampered by them colleagues. my boss, is super nice and i love him cos he is increasing my pay cos he claimed that ive been good and hardworking. and ive been doing OT since day 1. hehs- (mooo mooolahhhhs!) on the other hand, my supervisor, is like my mother at work. advices after advices. and yes, they know i love titbits so much (cos i never stop munching even when doing work!) that they ended up buying me chocs and ice-cream. hahs-

and the silly thing is, they had 2 big boxes of chocs left on the printer table, and i always (READ: ALWAYS) secretly and quietly will open up the box of chocs and take them. hahs-

and ouh ouhs, guess what? on days that im like a zombie, ill end up sleeping in the toilet. yes, TOILET. perangai babi lars siaaa! i even set myself an alarm (10mins) and when im done, ill pretend to have stomach ache. hahs- and this act has been up since the past 2 weeks. hahs. i never had my chance to shut my eyes when im on my desk!

my other colleague who is from myanmar is the one im closest with right now (compared to the rest). ouhs, there's only 5 of us working under this company, mind you. i remembered clearly the first day of work, how my myanmar colleague tried to explain the task she wanted me to complete for her. she talked like a bullet train. and i was double mean that i didnt stop her midway knowing that i dont even understand what she was talking. so, right at the end when she's done, she asked, 'Ok?'. i shook my head and pity her that she had to repeat again (but this time slower, ensuring that i understand bit by bit) hahs-

how time flies so fast that its almost a month that ive worked for SM1. and no, im not regretting anything. instead, i love working here. ((:

well well well, enough of work.

move onnnnn......

as mentioned in the previous entry, i turned a year younger last 26th. twenTEEN years old. i wanna be young laas. (oh, tell me who wanna be old!) hahs- and i am so loving it how my day was beautifully awesomely brilliantly spent with my boyfriend (read: boyfriendKU!).

aku sumpah was feeling-feeling princess that day.

we were supposed to meet at 9am but because the feeling of being a princess strucked me since yesterday midnight (when the clock struck 12).

side trackk....

the night before my birthday, i headed over to boyf's place to chill and to have our heart to heart talk after work. (which we have been doing since sunday. i dont even wanna recall that moments. please, its so over! and yeahs, i dont wish to get in details.) just that, right now, im happy at how things are between me and my love.

things got so tight when he raised that issue. i was pissed, of course. indeed we both were pissed at each other. and we both ended up not talking to each other. and he, ended up sleeping while me, had my stick. and right after, i fall asleep under his arms. hahs- and only to wake up 10mins to midnight (which is my birthday!).

by then, i was pleading boyf wanting to go home. thank god, parents didnt nag much upon reaching home. (well, the thing is, they were already asleep!) so dearest boyf pretended to ignore me. angry i am, i walked off first (hoping that he will follow behind me. cos he acted like as though he dont wanna send me home!) and havent i say, walking alone at Bp past midnight is super quiet. tsk.

i waited at his house entrance enjoying the indian songs from the channel which the security was tuning in to. only to turn and realised boyf was approaching me with a paper bag. at that point of time, i never did think it was my gift. soon after, he was infront of me. he leaned forward and kissed my forehead and whispered, 'Happy Birthday Baby. I love you'. he then passed me the paper bag which he was holding. i was startled surprised and everything. i hugged and thank him immediately.

'see, i told you. i wanna be the first to wish you and to hug and kiss you.' -boyf.

ohh baby, me love you.

exactly at that very same time last year, boyf surprised me with candles light up which spells out 'Naq, Happy Birthday!' over at my multi-storey carpark (which from my room, im able to see!) (will upload the candles photo if i can find them in my hard disk.)

upon reaching home, i quickly untie the ribbons of the gift. it was a box full of chocolates. he loves giving me boxes of chocs. (tell me how do i lose weight?!!)

AND GUESS WHATS THE BEST PART OF THE GIFT?

he hid a Sony Ericsson C902 CyberShot right at the bottom of the box, covered with some arty farty strips of shiny paper. i was of course, indeed, speechless. i teared, feeling-feeling lars. had my quick shower and called boyf. thank him and was telling him repeatedly that he shouldnt have wasted his $$ on this. me, being the super romantic girlf told him that i dont really need presents, just by being with my loved ones, it will be just as great. ((:

back on track...

so yeahs, we were supposed to meet up at 9am on my birthday itself. (oh yeahs, i took leave that day!) and since, dearest princess slept like a pig, she ended waking up at 10am. quickly prepared myself and made way to boyf's crib. waited for him to get ready. packed our stuff and headed down to Seah Im Foodcourt. by then it was already 12++.

had our lunch then headed to vivo. our (actually, it was his) purposed was to buy me another gift. aku sumpah was perangai cos i dont find the need to buy me a new bikini cos i was rushing for time cos i wanted to tann so much. it was almost 3:30pm when we both reached the beach. and the sun was not that scorching laaas. and we both ended up wind tanning (got such thing mehs?).

i know i promised him that ill get me something at tanning. but i ended up not wanting anything. so boyfku super pissed off. mood ponn lari... so yeahs, we both very perangai at vivo. he was walking in front and me, i was walking slowly behind him. i seriously wanted to head back home at that very moment.

then i dragged him off to head off sentosa. i told him we can still buy bikini after tanning. and aku kene marah, 'Buy bikini later for what? We're going tanning now whattt..'. so, i shut my mouth and just followed behind him.

and then he surprised me, again. this time to Mt Faber to have my very first ride of the Cable Car after 14years. we had the glass cabin. and of course, aku yang mula-mula very pissed, smiled and was happy to the max! hehs-

cable car rides was awesomee. alighted at Sentosa. at first, he wanted Cafe Del Mar but i suggested we should just strike that idea knowing he already spent too much $ on me. so, we headed over to Pahlawan beach to get our tanning oil since boyf misplaced the one he had then to the 7-11 to get ourselves titbits and ~~heineken~~. headed over to Tanjong Beach and by then i was already waving goodbye to my tanning session. but still, we managed to tann for an hour or so and then i got super binget cos there's no sun so we ended up diving into the sea.

(and im gonna have another tanning session by the pool at boyf's crib this sunday, hopefully)

yadayada. then we went off for our Cable Car Rides back to Mt Faber at around 7 plus so that we could grab the view at night. so, to kill time, we had pure chocolate ice blended and tuna puff over at Coffee Bean.

we were supposed to head back down to vivo to grab me stuff cos i already promised boyf, but since we were both super tired already, we ended up going back to his crib. chilled and only to head back home at 9 plus since dad called, wanted to have dinner outside to celebrate my birthday. well, it has been our tradition. and both parents suggested that i bring boyf along. so yeahs, he did.

had my usual conversation with boyf before heading to bed knowing i was working the next day. like OHHH-EMMMMM-GEEEEEEE!

thank you so much for the wishes people.

be it thru sms, msg, facebook, msn.

yes, i had an enjoyable and memorable twenTEEN birthday!

and of course, to my dearest boyf.

thank you so much for everything.

me loves you.

oh, on a brighter note, results were out and im happy. pretty obvious? i cleared all my modules. double tripple happy lars~!

oh oh oh, i had another advanced birthday celebration and also belated birthday celebration for Salihin at Sakura Buffet Restaurant (Clementi) last saturday with my favourite babygirls and boys. i wont get into details much. (picchas up in the next entry. hopefully!)

and yesterday, watched midnight movie with boyf friends (mac riders) together with ody and his girlf. left house at 1:30am and met up with them at Cineleisure. The Unborn was boring lars. i wont recommend you to watch it. really.

then we headed over to Jln Kayu for supper. and only to reach home 10 mins before 6am. hahs-

i know this entry is so sumpah long and draggy. i cant wait for later to meet up with dearest cousins for our gathering. hehs- and im all stressed thinking what to wear.

theme: vintage retro.

till then, bear with me.

picchas will be uploaded by tonight or latest, tml.

much love;

2009-03-26T03:04:00.000-07:00

yours truly turned a year younger today.

so, happy birthday!

ive got tonnes of pictures to upload. but im still trying hard to squeeze some time to upload them here. no worries. you see, ive been working my ass off and going back home late nights. thus, therefore, the reason why this blog was left untouched.

will be back soon for proper updates with tonnes of picchas.

daa~!

me loves boyfriend.

2009-03-17T01:09:00.000-07:00

i am that desperate.

and i need you.

please.

2009-03-08T14:27:00.000-07:00

i am fucking pissed and i fucking have decided what i fucking want/need. so, you dont fucking tell me what im supposed to do or whatever fucking shit. cos, i dont give a fucking damn. cos you and your fucking self can go fuck your own fucking system.

i think its the fucking time i put much thoughts to everything. especially this major problem which i have fucking no idea to where its leading me to.

bear with me for a proper update. ive been a busy bee.

and jason mraz concert was awesome.

pictures and videos will be uploaded soon!

and i seriously think, sooner or later, its time for me to share with you readers about my fucking wonderful attitude which some people just wants me to share it with the whole world. you'll just have to wait for the day to come. and then, you'll know the real me and my fucking bitchy slutty *insert whatever word here* attitude.

done.

2009-02-25T13:41:00.000-08:00

and that's Tioman Island for you. me of course, am anticipating much for that day to come. though i know my schedule will be super duper tight for the whole of march till mid april due to my attachment (which is freaking at Balestier!!!!).

i know, im not supposed to be here. but guess what people? im having my very last paper tml before me start kickin' and partaying. all out baybehs. hehs-

been studying at fajar macd till early morning lately with hazah. and yes, early morning. 3++. and seriously, its kinda scary to walk from fajar to me home (which only took me about 10mins or lesser). still, the whole area of fajar is super quiet with only mac riders bike riding pass you.

and the best part is, having people texting/calling you just to scare you.

(like me sister, 'eh, becareful. just now i heard Misteri Jam 12 then they talk about....)

yes, right before she could finish up her sentence, i ended the call. THANKKKKKKS EH!!
i was already cursing by then. the freaking lift upgrading at my blk is another scary thing. and i hate taking the lift in the middle of the night. you know. imaginations can go wild.

im supposed to make this a short entry. so yeahs, its already 2pm and im meeting hazah at 3. and ive yet to take my shower. till then people, more updates very soon.

me so cant wait for tml's paper to be done and over with cos ive a list of to do things to be done during the vacation. especially tanning with love this weekend.

(me birthday next month!)

ok ok bye!

2009-02-18T14:52:00.000-08:00

i dont know why i have this urge to privatize my blog soon after my exams are over when the fact is, i see no reason why i should do so. i just find my blog rather mundane, unexciting, uninteresting and monotonous unlike some very good blogs or LJ which i ever came across to. mine is super rountine like which is definitely a total bore.

but nevertheless, im pretty much happy seeing the counter increasing everyday. something to look forward to knowing i do have people reading my blog (though its super borrriinnggggg!, but ive already tried my best to make it look/sound interesting. hehs-) ((:

so anw, life been a total bitch for me. and im definitely dying. problems and everything just had to struck me at the wrong time. im having exams for goodness sake! and i cant take the amount of load dumped on me. nonetheless, i have family and friends who are there supporting me in any ways they can. and of course, very much appreciated. loves;

i wouldnt wanna get in details to the pile of shit ive been receiving from people around me. perhaps when i think the time is right, ill pen everything down here. for now, i should be concentrating much on my exams (first paper tml!). and im almost there, ready to sit for the paper.

hopefully todays sleepovers is on cos i damn need these experts to guide me. ok, i know im such a loser at this. tsk!

so dearest readers, ill be on a long hiatus (this time, for sure!) till 26th February. so, expect no updates.

alright alright.

ive got to take my shower (which i have yet to since the moment i woke up)

*time check: 3:01pm!

gotta get back to my revision.

oh oh oh anw,

he called me yesterday and though i sounded so far beyond happy, deep down in me, im still afraid to meet you and face the truth. i bet its gonna be a great fall for me.

ciao bella;

2009-02-14T04:47:00.000-08:00

i hate this part right here.

im never this weak.

its almost 5am and im still not asleep.

goodnight.

2009-02-12T02:19:00.000-08:00

i met my girls last tuesday to have a short lunch over at Banquest CoswayPt before everybody left for home/work. and im pretty much, of course, double super happy to meet them. just so you know, they're the girlfriends i made during my Milennia Institute (MI) back in 2006. though it was just a short one, i still managed to capture moments to be kept save in my heart.

the funny thing is, we're all in the same boat.

hehs-

so it was like updating of the hottest news in town.

gossipssssssssssssss!

guess what?

its 2:28am and i have a paper at 10:30am later and im left with 1 more chapter to revise. hehs- im so dead. very dead.

and oh yeahs, i reactivated my FB account. and right now, im thinking of deactivating it back. i know, super stupid. double stupid!

like he said, whatever~!

goodnight.

i love you girls like fat kids loves cheesecakes.

oh oh, before i forget.

happy 20th, syadah!

and happy 27th to us baby!

aku cinta padamu.

2009-02-07T18:08:00.000-08:00

you can dream on, mr romeo.

anw, ive deleted both facebook and friendster account.

lets be nice and not reveal why.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHS.

i can give you double of that.

or maybe triple.

deal?

2009-01-31T16:35:00.000-08:00

yep, i have a chunk of pictures but you'll have to bear with the procrastinating queen because shes gonna take her time. blame the tests and exams!

and to my dearest mira, have a safe journey to and fro.

i want something from Iran, hehs.

i love you.

2009-01-29T00:44:00.000-08:00

End of February.

i know its the big day for me.

a really big one.

anw, expect no updates.

EXAMS!

2009-01-19T21:13:00.000-08:00

(you can chose to ignore this post)

i love you, sweetlove.

nothings gonna change that.

im still holding onn...

let it be just,

just,

US - ME&YOU!

2009-01-19T02:25:00.000-08:00

i should be in bed at this hour.

but i decided to wait.

i know very well,

you are coping well with things.

but just so you know,

im NOT.

im dying.

really am.

so please, come back home dearest bestfriend.

you're all that i need.

i love you.

anwoos, HAPPY 20th, NASSY!

i love you baby.

2009-01-16T23:11:00.000-08:00

im never good at this.

i love you, hairul nizam.

i love you.

i'll be on hiatus till everything is stable.

im sorry.

2009-01-15T16:44:00.000-08:00

much apologies for the delay of the mass updates. i know this entry (and the next two) should be up here last weekend. but since some unwanted things popped up, i decided to post them up later.

yes, i have a whole chunk of pictures. thus, therefore, i wont be telling you readers exactly what happened or else, it gonna be hell long entry.

come, feast your eyes with these...

28th December 2008

IRFAN's (baby cousin) CUKUR RAMBOT.

all i can remember was, the food was awesome. all thanks to Mama (nurul's mom) who cooked them. and as the uncles and aunties were busy yakking, the cousins and i did nothing else but camwhoring.

nurul

dearest nuryl was there too. and i managed to teach her how to saw GEMOK (fat) to her mom. and she was freaking cute, 'mummy mok!'. and when i started calling her gemok and boncit, she replied me with, 'KAKAK MOK!'.

wahs~!

learning fast yeahs.

haidah & nuryl

31st December 2008/1st January 2009

NEW YEAR 09 COUNTDOWN

the plan was rather last minute. i left house at 9pm and waited for ayun for almost 45mins. of course, by then i was so pissed to the max.

(and ouhs izzad, im sorry i definitely missed the episode you acted at MENTARI at Suria Channel. but for all i know, i think the girls out there who recognise you sure go, 'AKU TAKNAK MATAIR NGN DEKNI. CONFIRM KENE DERA!' hahs. messin`)

headed to vivo to meet up with man and mira. seriously, the place was damn damn damn packed. then walked around and waited for mira to settle her midnight movie tix. then we headed down to Hakim Restaurant along Pasir Panjang Road to have our dinner since everyone was complaining that they were damn hungry (including me, myself and i!)

rushed down to Marina at Keppel Bay (wait! i kinda forget the name of that damn place. but its just beside Reflections or Carribean) to catch the fireworks.

GEMOK! stop it eh!

two-cheelow-cheelow-nine!

the best thing was, from our point of view, we were able to catch the view of 4 different places of fireworks - Mt Faber, Vivo, Marina Sq., and of course, Siloso Beach. and i kinda am dissapointed with the fact that i missed the beach party countdown at Siloso cos i already missed one - Zoukout 08. (if only i knew Kak Elly was going way in adv., i would have tagged along!)

then sent mira off to catch her midnight movie at vivo with her cousins. while the rest and i headed down to ECP. and the freaking expressways was jam packed and TPs were on duty. and i so am pissed with this freaking gilera mat and his girlf cos he was riding damn fast and somehow was just beside ayun and myself. seriously, they were damn near us. imagine, that i can touch them without having to stretch my hands.

upon reaching ECP, it was another hell. the roads were jammed too. and the guys were complaining that their hands were aching and stuff. and me on the other hand, was complaining on how hurt my butt was. talked and chilled before we made our way back to vivo to fetch dear mira. by then it was already 2++ in the morning.

man feeling2 bawak SUPER4.

at Hakim Restaurant

and road blocks were everywhere!!

and so, hello 2009.

thanks to them who celebrated it with me although it was rather dull. still, i enjoyed myself.

(and ive still yet to upload an antry about the year of 2008 and my 2009 resolutions!)

ayun, me, mira, man, in

1st January 2009

NEW YEAR AT ECP with family

the following day was totally unplanned. headed down to ECP with the family since dad wanted to fly kite so much.

fly kite..

fly kite..

everybody go fly kite.

(ok this is so redundant. just one of my camp songs)

seriously, the weather was scary. stong winds dark clouds and anything that can result to a heavy downpour. but somehow, the weather changed towards the late afternoon. and it was all good to fly a kite and of course, cycling.

yes, thats my brother's kite.

huge!

i got bored so this is what you get!

then i suggested cycling to brother. so we left our parents for their kite flying. i wanted to try the 'jumping jacks' so much but was rather afraid.

and we managed to cycle all the way to Bedok Jetty to have our rest there (which include camwhoring) and watched those fisherman!

cycled back after having enough rest and had this very stupid childish race with this cute little small girl. hahs- and since we had an hour free cos it was 'rent 1hr get 1hr free', we handed our bikes to the parents at the 2nd hour. i managed to follow behind them with my blades.

and my blades were damn old that the tyres started to crack and as a result, i throw it away. begged dad and mom to buy me a new one. (and up till today, ive yet to receive a new one!)

unpacked the tent and headed down to grandma's crib at Bt Batok for steamboat with nurul's family. by then it was already 9pm.

3rd January 2009 out with the loved ones;

Mama Melor, Kakak, Sister, Ayuni & Niny

managed to bring my nieces out for some family bonding thingy with Mama Melor and Kakak. headed down to grandpa's crib at Clementi first since both grandparents missed them two alot.

ayuni & niny

my sister feeling2 got kids.

Kakak

Mama Melor

Ayuni

grandpa

grandma

i brought niny down to play the playground. and she didnt even wanna head back home cos i think she was hook'd.

my lil` princess.

she was totally hook'd to this.

then cabbed down to Anchor Pt. walked and chilled. that very same night, we sent the kids of back home to their mummy's. and both sister and i had a sleepover at Kakak's crib. and did our usual routine of heading down to Al-Amein woodlands for supper by legs. yes yes, we walked to Al-Amein from Woodlands Dr. 14.

FAR OK!

4th January 2009

HUNT FOR RIPCURL BACKPACK!

my legs hurt badly due to the freaking long walk from Heeren to Shaw House to Pacific Plaza to Plaza Singapura to Raffles City to City Link to finally, Marina Square to search for that very backpack design which haidah wanted so much.

and she ended up buying Roxy!!

(mcm toot right!!)

yes yes, we both went public for haidah's sake.

haidah

and ouhs babe, congrats on your results for PSLE!!

6th January 2009

paid a visit to Khaty who was admitted at NUH due to her very bad migraine with khairul and dhiya. and she was damn manje i tell you..

this is why i said, she was manje!!

and i hate that freaking drama! (and so was dee!)

we left and headed down to BPP MACD for dinner. and bumped onto my cadets who are now my fellow CIs.

8th January 2009

JOGGING SESSION cum PREP for NAPHA TEST

with fareez and ian

t'was hell good and healthy. im proud at how i managed to complete jogging (not running!) AROUND SP! (**note: not the stadium or field or whatever.) yes, you got it right! it was to jog AROUND SP! (the word is: AROUND!) hell yeahs, imagine that.

and guess what, we're gonna make it a weekly thingy.

yays!

and i so cant wait for this week's!

(now, say goodbye to fats!)

then come mira and man who were from Dempsey Hill. chilled, had my shower and waited for dad to fetch me. thanks guys for accompanying me.

i have two more entries with lotsa pictures.

- ECP BBQ PIT

- CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION

so, bear with me...

2009-01-15T16:20:00.000-08:00

25th December 2008

CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION at SENTOSA

i was pretty much excited bout the sudden plan to head down to sentosa by dad on Christmas. of course it was such a brilliant idea that i was totally on for it. and since it was Christmas, i dragged the whole family (except sis cos she headed out with her boyf) to wear red with me.

definitely, we received alot of stares and compliments. (all thanks to me!)

i hated the part we had to queue for damn 45mins to almost an hour for the freaking luge&sky ride. damn it. sentosa was so so packed with humans (mostly foreigners).

all i could remember was, we had dinner at Adam Road before heading home. im pretty much lazy to get in details. ill let the pictures to do the talking for now...

i missed it!

tata`.

2009-01-12T15:06:00.000-08:00

i know this is so redundant but im gonna blog bout dearest brother results.

and im very very very proud of him cos he definitely score very well.

i almost jumped with joy in class upon receiving the msg from him.

and i end up calling sister and dad to share the piece of good news with.

and the funny thing was, both sister and i started screaming on the phone knowing exactly what we're gonna tell each other.

scoring with an r5 of 14pts an r4 of 10pts.

hows that?

im proud of you definitely.

I LOVE YOU, DEAREST!

ill see you at home tonight.
and im sooooo gonna rape you!

2009-01-12T01:27:00.000-08:00

i know im supposed to do my mass updates but some shit happened;

the CURSE of JANUARY the 11th!

promised, by the upcoming weekend.

im fucking pissed at how things are right now.

and i fucking hate January the 11th.

is this a fucking curse or what?

the same fucking shit im experiencing it this year, happened last year.

ohh fuck.

and im very sure, im sticking to what ive decided.

and yes, its something im forcing myself to do.

perhaps, ..

its time.

its the time, baby.

im damn pissed now.

and im so sorry to those who tried to cheer me up.

i need my time alone.

but anw, thanks alot.

thanks for being there.

and to you,

(i know its not very nice to mention names here)

dont you fucking understand that i dont fucking want you to keep appearing in my life.

cos the thing between you and me are...

OVER!

its been fucking 4yrs (coming to 5).

its fucking over, boy!

its fucking over!

i failed.

i failed.

i failed.

and im very sorry.

its not about you.

its all about ME, baby.

i have a freaking presentation tml and my freaking pwtslides are still not up yet.

and i have a freaking report to complete and its freaking fucking not done yet.

and i have alot of assignments due somewhere near, and its all not done yet.

hows that?

and ouhs,

to dearest brother (and shakz baby!).

ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR RESULTS LATER.

2009-01-09T11:21:00.000-08:00

i promised a proper entry by Sunday.

been busy busy busy bee.

assignments.

projects.

reports.

presentation!

kill me.

2009-01-05T03:49:00.000-08:00

all thanks to my lappy which went dead for quite sometime. thus, therefore, this blog was left untouched for long. of course, ive got a list of things to update but i shall just leave that for later. perhaps, this weekend. all thanks to dear (??) assignments which are pilling up. urghs.

its almost 4am and im still not in bed. im sure to have a hard time waking up later. or worst still, i might be dozing off during lectures and tutorials. hows that? then, i shall bid farewell to scoring good grades.

my legs are aching badly due to the freaking long walk from Heeren to Shaw House to Pacific Plaza to Plaza Singapura to Raffles City to City Link to finally, Marina Square just now. and i end up cabbing home. (alright alright, thanks ayun for the $$$)

oh, i gotta thank ayun for leaving me. you cheated my feelings.

){_*_#&%$(@#*

anw, my eyes are doing well lately. usually at this hour, they will start to itch - giving me signals to have them shut. hahs.

i cant wait for thursday date with FF.

(all thanks to mira)

i guess i shall hit the sack now.

am having a very bad flu now and dear me feels like taking an MC later.

hahahhahahhahahs =x

presentations suck!

HELLO 2009!

2008-12-25T05:12:00.000-08:00

i fucking made up my mind.

really.

2008-12-20T15:23:00.000-08:00

im stupid.

very stupid indeed.

super stupid

cos why?

i totally forgot about the class bbq pit at West Coast Park today.

plus, im damn fucken broke that i dont wanna feel bad at the end of the day not paying a single cent for the pit.

and the best thing is, my girls are turning up.

and khaty is even planning to take on mc and skip work.

and i heard many others are turning up too. people like tianwei, shihui, victor and many other cheenahs. of course, i miss the ex classmates. (that includes those from 4A too!)

i dont wanna miss the fun.

jeesh~!

and the major problem is, i already made plans with ayun. how bout that?

and mok, if you're reading this...

i want you to know that i miss you to bits and pieces!

really.

please, meet me soon!

loves;

SPEAKER!